Since I’ve been spending many hours redoing this blog, I realize how much creative energy it has sapped. I heard recently that making decisions saps creativity. So that explains it. Do you know how many decisions there are when doing a self-hosted blog?!?
I do wish I had kept the platform on Blogger – it’s sooooo much simpler! But in order to move it back I will lose every link to every picture…and I just don’t know if I have the energy to re-upload hundreds of pictures right now.
I miss my beloved follower box. I got to see pictures of you – my readers! – and go visit your sites as well. And I could see easily how many of you there were. I miss that. So far, I haven’t found any WordPress equivalents. If anyone knows of one – please share!!!
Scariness of Change
Anyway, it has got me thinking about change, creativity, and shame. That bad old word. Changing something good – risking to make it better – is scary. But risk is necessary to avoid being boring. Stagnant. Dull.
Whenever we move into the world to make a difference, to make a mark, to touch someone, we open up to criticism. That criticism can come from the outside world, or from the inside one. Social Media forces us to keep up a persona to avoid that criticism. I can’t say that…I can’t think that…OMG, they will know me. That’s another post for another time.
But that inside world. Those old tapes, those old messages of negativity, just can start playing when risk gets close. You know those kinds of tapes: You’re not good enough, not talented enough, someone else did it first, better. They are smarter than you. You have nothing important to say. No one cares what you think.
What if, underneath it all, we really aren’t good enough?
That can’t possibly be true.
I am still alive today and so are you. As long as I have breath I have purpose. I may not always have direction for that purpose, but I do have purpose. You have purpose too. And you know it deep in your soul.
So I am in the midst of a season of change. Again. For the umpteenth time.
On a positive note, I did learn how to install Google Analytics so I can see that about the same number of you still visited the new site! I just can’t see your face. I guess if you comment I can see you? And learn who you are?
Maybe I need to do a link party – everyone who reads this put a link to your blog in the comments section. Who knows?!?
I still need to figure out how to put the links of blogs I read and recommend in the sidebar. It’s coming!
Patience with myself. And pacing myself. And reminding myself that taking risks is a GOOD thing. It is certainly necessary for creativity to flourish. Don’t you think so?
What risks are you taking in your creativity today?